I'm getting tired. I don't know on what aspect, but I just feel so tired. What do I want? What do I really need? What do I love? There's just this empty feeling here that I can't pinpoint where it's coming from. I wish I can have a retreat, or go to a beach somewhere where I can be alone.
Jealousy is eating me.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Lost
I'm pissed off right now. I'm about to move to a new apartment, coz my girlfriend doesn't want me there anymore. Why? Because that's where I used to live with my ex, all our things are still there, and there's no cell signal. Initially, I thought I'm gonna go solo on finding for my new place, then she said, "so ikaw lang mag-isa, ayaw mo ko isama?". You know, tampo. Then I said, I thought you didn't want t come with me. In short, we agreed that we'll find a new apartment together.
Then just around an hour ago, she told me, "tinatamad ako maghanap eh, ikaw na lang". Now tell me, is it wrong if I feel bad? Is it bad kung ako naman ang magtampo? Bad trip. I got excited when she said that she wanna come with me. Then now this. Bad trip.
Hirap talaga.
Monkeyman, wag mo kasi ipagpilitang isisik ang sarili mo sa taong hindi kayang maging parte ka ng buhay niya.
Hay.
Then just around an hour ago, she told me, "tinatamad ako maghanap eh, ikaw na lang". Now tell me, is it wrong if I feel bad? Is it bad kung ako naman ang magtampo? Bad trip. I got excited when she said that she wanna come with me. Then now this. Bad trip.
Hirap talaga.
Monkeyman, wag mo kasi ipagpilitang isisik ang sarili mo sa taong hindi kayang maging parte ka ng buhay niya.
Hay.
Wednesday, September 09, 2009
From the Ashes...
I am reinventing this blog and will become sort of my life journal. Everything that I am encountering will be here (fuck twitter). And I mean everything. Don't care if somebody reads it, as long as I vent everything up.
That's what you get when you live alone.
So what has been up? Became a TL in a BPO company. Ended a relationship for 5 years. Started living alone in a small, dark apartment. And I have a new girlfriend. For 7 months now. She has 2 kids. Yup. 2 kids. Different fathers. Now people who know me well would be so shocked if they hear this. But what can I say. Maybe this is is the love that I haven't felt before. The love that I've been looking for. The love that I didn't know existed.
Karma? Nah. Walang Karma.
Mahal ako ng Diyos.
I love this girl so very much. Yup. That much. But I feel alone. I'm aching to be with her, to live with her, and of course, the kids. I want someone to go home to. But too many complications.
You'll know more about everything as we move forward.
Ang mahiwagang tanong: Saan kaya ako magpapasko?
That's what you get when you live alone.
So what has been up? Became a TL in a BPO company. Ended a relationship for 5 years. Started living alone in a small, dark apartment. And I have a new girlfriend. For 7 months now. She has 2 kids. Yup. 2 kids. Different fathers. Now people who know me well would be so shocked if they hear this. But what can I say. Maybe this is is the love that I haven't felt before. The love that I've been looking for. The love that I didn't know existed.
Karma? Nah. Walang Karma.
Mahal ako ng Diyos.
I love this girl so very much. Yup. That much. But I feel alone. I'm aching to be with her, to live with her, and of course, the kids. I want someone to go home to. But too many complications.
You'll know more about everything as we move forward.
Ang mahiwagang tanong: Saan kaya ako magpapasko?
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